rating: ★☆☆☆☆

this book gets one star for being the first novel i've ever read in spanish. and that's me being GENEROUS. i hated this book after a while cuz it's fucking weird. i was roped in because the main character was a bisexual man. the book pissed me off because he kept calling himself latino even though he's from SPAIN. the story was so violent and sexist against women which doesn't always bother me enough to rant about it, but holy shit. his not-boyfriend who he sleeps naked with every night but doesnt fuck (🙄) choked a woman out and assaulted a bunch of people the first night they met and the main character loves him so much for it.

there's SO MUCH weird sexual shit, and not enough gay shit. first of all, he keeps calling this dog muscular and sexy basically and then the dog cums on him and he's fine with it. he also tells a story about how he came on a sheep's face in order to get ben to cum at the sperm bank as they watch each other jerk off. there's a scene where he's basically being molested by these french guys who are high and then one of them fucks himself with a PISTOL like literally puts it into his ass and cums and then the m.c. puts the fucking gun in his MOUTH to play russian roulette with it and is like damn this gun smells like shit. so nasty. then there's a part where he shits in his own bath and then a woman throws up in it and he sinks himself FURTHER into the water. god that was so fucking disgusting.

besides that awful stuff, the m.c. is just so annoying. he keeps thinking he's cool and deep and so misunderstood and everyone sucks but he's just a fucking asshole with ZERO redeeming qualities. he kicks a fucking cat!!!! he jerks off while watching his neighbor and it's SO weird. he's just a fucking dick to everybody he meets and thinks he's SO fucking superior. i'm sure i'll remember more awful things about it but THANK GOD no one has ever read it. i can't find anything about this damn book anywhere online. i was looking for support but didn't find any unfortunately.

rating:★★★☆☆

i read this book because ❤️jackie❤️ recommended it to me. it was a good read. i didnt hate it, and it did make me feel emotions. i even teared up at the very end. i read this as an ebook and in a physical copy i got from u**'s library. i don't have as many strong words about this book as i do the previous one. overall, it was an enjoyable reading. i give it three stars because it was entertaining, easy, and made me think a lot about my own life.

i like that ch*cago was mentioned of course. my favorite part of the book is when she realized that marrying that guy wasn't gonna make her life happy. i also liked that at the end, she doesn't immediately go off to marry ash. though, i don't like how hetersexual it was in that having a husband and daughter in another life made her not want to kill herself anymore. their relationship was very sweet though, even if it was just at the end. i also liked that it was a library of course. it was cute and i wish i could draw how i think the library looks in my mind.

what i DIDN'T like about the book... well there's nothing i hated necessarily. but one thing that annoyed me was that when her ex-boyfriend called her from mexico while she was in brazil, he said that they 'were on the same continent' which irritated me because NO YOU'RE NOT!!! those are TWO different continents!! also something i just thought about. why didn't she ask the librarian what her life would have been like if she DIDN'T try to kill herself? much to think about.

rating: ★☆☆☆☆

GOD. this fucking book. i can't believe i read it all in one day. this might be the the WORST book i've ever fucking read. one that's pissed me off the absolute most. one star is GENEROUS, believe me. i CANNOT believe this book is as popular as it is. it is just genuinely so bad. going off the top of my dome, the characters are fucking infuriating and awful people who i can't believe you're supposed to sympathize with. the other friend, cant even remember his name, the one who gets randomly fucking shot, had NO personality at all.

rating: ★★☆☆☆

this book gets a 2/5 stars from me. like. it was entertaining and all but i really didn't care for the protaganist that much. he was kind of a know it all and just pretty bland. the characters overall were pretty mid. i felt like it was just a lot of wasted potential. i haven't seen the movie yet. i'm excited to see where else this can be taken. the book is OKAY i guess. i really liked the concept and the world that was being established, but i also didn't enjoy the writing style that much. i didn't really care for the various shifts in tone when they would do a flashback. and they wouldn't ESTABLISH that it was a fuckin flashback.

i also have to say that i think nasha was a lot of wasted potential. like she was just there to fuck mickey??? she didn't really contribute anything to the story. i will say though. her wanting to be fucked by mickey 7 and 8 at the same time was very sasuke coded of her and i loved it. that was really the only highlight of the book and it wasn't even explicit sex either.

i'll also say that i didn't like the ending. it was so WHATEVER. i didn't really have any reason to root for mickey at any point in the story really. like. i get the whole thing was about how he hates dying and is basically immortal but but he hates it. i just didn't feel any real STAKES for whether or not he should die. like. he doesn't want to go into the tank and get killed, but at the same time like??? why wouldn't he want to be killed. he just needed to upload his fuckin memories.

there's also my gripe with him being a history major. i mean. not to brag but i myself am a history major. just a month ago now really. but it didn't even really matter!!! which i know was the point of him being an expendable on the ship, but just because he threw in little pieces of history didn't really feel like something written by a history major. like. history is about ANALYSIS. anyway. i feel like his whole existential dread would have made much more sense if he was a philosophy major. it would have held much more weight as it pertained to whether or not he felt like he was mickey or just a thing.

another thing that wasn't satisfying is how nasha at the end was like "okay mickey😍😍😍" when he revealed that he tricked the commander at the very end afterall. their relationship didn't feel very important at all. i mean they cared about each other but nasha was ONLY there to give him cariño yknow?? idk this book wasn't satisfying at all. i can't wait to see what bong joon ho does with this concept. based on the title alone i am far more interested. like mickey SEVENTEEN is way more impactful than seven. i feel like these conversations would have much more weight if he died sixteen times and not just six. i guess we'll see. maybe i'll update my little review here after i see it.